Tired. Work sucks all the energy out of me, but I try and hang on and things are looking brighter. Personal life also draining me a little at the moment, but that also looking brighter. Maybe the tiredness is a reaction, backfire, to all the stress I've been through, both mentally and physically, the last months. When I think back at it, it's insane that I've managed to still be standing.

It is for me insane how much I love my Tobias, the light in my life. How he can fill my mind and soul every day. How incredible he is, what an amazing person he is. I can't imagine living my life without him as it is now, I cant force that image up, he keeps stepping in.






I've been trying to do some drawing, it went pretty well actually, eventhough I've been holding up for so long. I guess it's like bicycling in a way. So when I feel I have the energy and time combined, ill upload some stuff. I'll also try to finish some things.

Other than that I've been photographing some, editing photos aswell, a big hobby of mine. I might upload something. Thinking about trying to fix a page of somekind, for the photos. It feels like if I upload the photos here, it kinda disturbs the art.

She made me do it!!!


1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you


1. The age you will be on your next birthday - 24


2. A place you'd like to travel - usa


3. Your favorite place - with tobias


4. Your favorite object - My computer


5. Favorite food - sushi


6. Your favorite animal - cat
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7. Your favorite color- black


8. The town/state/etc in which you live - Knivsta


9. Name of past pet - Josefine
(lol, that is her ^^ my pic was on first page)


10. A dream come true - independance (financially)


11. Your nickname/screenname - vild


12. Middle name - Maria
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13. Favorite smell - Acqua Di Gio (the smell of tobias <3)


14. Bad habit of yours - I swear alot
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15. Your first job - at a laboratory


16. Favourite Movie - (I cant possibly say that, but the latest movie I really enjoyed was Golden Compass)
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17. What are you doing right now? - waiting


18. Whats The Weather Like? - cloudy and cold


19. Favourite Sport - To play or watch? I enjoy playing innebandy aka floorball aka indoor bandy


20. Favourite Music/Style/Band - synth and metal





Life is heavy right now ._. Real heavy. Hopefully it'll get better along with the days getting longer and lighter. There's too much going on in my head and life for me to have time or energy to do anything else but getting through the day.

So, lets give it a try. I've been waiting WAY to long getting a CSS journal. I just never found the energy, but now I found a link to kuschelirmel-stock and it was beautiful and simple. I'll revamp it a little but I just have to see how it looks and works first



Exciting. My life is a mystery. I got so much happening and yet so little it drives me insane. I'm in between two jobs, both which I like and enjoy and not knowing what I want to do or how this new will work out for me.

I've moved and changed stuff in my life. I am still the same person though. I'll try to get some more time and energy to draw stuff but it's hard right now.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve and I still don't know what I'm doing but I wish you all a so very happy New Year from the bottom of my soul and heart.